Our Real Life Experience With CPTSD & PTSD

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  1. Oh how I sympathize with this. I’ve had a problem with nightmares (and night terrors) for as long as I can remember. Actually, my earliest memories are of nightmares that I had when I was extremely young. I also went through a period of severe abuse when I was a little girl and was diagnosed with PTSD, but my nightmares were pretty much the same level of terrifying. I honestly can’t remember a time when my nightmares weren’t PTSD-level bad, but they became more frequent. And by bad, I mean gory and violent, often with disturbingly coherent storylines. I’m talking “Hellraiser” type stuff… only multiply that times about a thousand. On the other side of the spectrum, I would sometimes have dreams that were so sad that I would wake up in tears, and some would have me upset for days. It’s ridiculous, because I’m super down to earth and laid back in waking life and I’m not into horror movies or anything like that (I’m afraid it would make them worse) so I don’t know why I have them. Most of them scare the absolute crap out of me. But I totally understand how it feels to have these kinds of dreams that you describe. They’re so real it’s insane. My brain is fantastic at recreating my immediate surroundings in nightmares, so I often wake up confused and panicked for a moment because I think I’m still dreaming. I’ve truly spent most of my life terrified to sleep, and I usually don’t sleep more than three or four hours a night. I finally went to a doctor recently because the lack of sleep was making me ill and they put me on prazosin… it was a miracle drug. I couldn’t stay on it, unfortunately, because my blood pressure was dropping too low. But honestly I would highly recommend it to anyone who has a nightmare or night terror disorder and can tolerate blood pressure medication physically. It pains me that I can’t continue taking it, as it provided me with the first really significant span of time in my life where I wasn’t afraid of sleep. I’m trying trazadone now… It’s also an alpha-blocker so I’m hoping it works in a similar manner. I hate how much nightmare disorders and PTSD-related nightmares are downplayed in society though… it really is a debilitating condition that effects all aspects of the sufferer’s life.

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